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It could all be so simple
but you'd rather make it hard
loving you is like a battle
and we both end up with scars
tell me, who i have to be
to get some reciprocity
see, no one loves you more than me
and no one ever will
is this just a silly game
that forces you to act this way
forces you to scream my name
then pretend that you can't stay
tell me, who i have to be
to get some reciprocity
See no one loves you more than me
and no one ever will.
No matter how i think we grow
you always seem to let me know
it ain't workin'
it ain't workin' (No, it ain't workin)
and when i try to walk away
you hurt yourself to make me stay
this is crazy (this is crazy)
oh this is crazy (this is crazy)
i keep letting you back in
how can i explain myself
as painful as this thing has been
i just can't be with no one else
see i know what we've got to do
you let go and i'll let go too
cause no one's hurt me more than you
and no one ever will
No matter how I think we grow
you always seem to let me know
it ain't workin' (it ain't workin)
it ain't workin'
And when i try to walk away
you hurt yourself to make me stay
This is crazy (This is crazy)
Oh this is crazy (this is crazy)
care for me, care for me (care)
i know you care for me
there for me there for me (there)
said you'd be there for me
cry for me cry for me (cry)
you said you'd die for me
give to me give to me (give)
why won't you live for me.
care for me, care for me (care)
you said you care for me
there for me there for me (there)
said you'd be there for me
cry for me cry for me (cry)
you said you'd die for me
give to me give to me (give)
why won't you live for me.
Where were you, when I needed you?
this song is too emo for words. but I love it nonetheless.
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[21 Jun 2006|12:14pm] |
hello mofos. so here goes:
Ryan's taking part in Zouk's fashion show - The High Life
together with Mark they're gonna help raise funds for some teen challenge thingy.
Im not a big fan of that show for certain reasons, but if your tuesday night's free, please go down to support. its only $15 from 7.30pm-10pm
:D thanks to all
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It's a dreadfully cold monday morning at the airport.
I'm at pacific coffee which is quite luckily only an elevator away from burger king.
No better way to start the new week than burying myself in biological molecules. hah.
It seems like monday mornings are always the loneliest, most empty of all days at the airport. I can imagine everyone snuggled up and cozy in their beds in their thick blankets and I'm starting to get rather envious. Sigh. The sacrifices I make.
I realized that people are the only things that make the airport warm. Or anywhere for that matter.
That's what normally keeps me warm in this place. And also what keeps me from going insane.
It's nice sometimes to walk down to the arrival hall to check out the excited faces of people expecting a loved one from overseas and the smiles that accompany the first peek at that loved one through the glass. Glass. It's almost exactly that which keeps most people apart. Transparent barriers that could take the shape of anger, fear(of rejection) or even love(if you think about it). But maybe I think a little too much.
I guess it's been a really long time since I've "penned" my thoughts down and this 'itch' was bothering me enough to make me part with my "precious" notes to write down whatever was on my mind.
And this is what I think. I think that no one can survive being utterly alone. No one can survive solitude. Not even God. That's why he created us. No matter how much you try to deny it. No matter how strongly your ego may at times object, it would soon render resistance futile and later on surrender to the need for love and attention. And then I wonder sometimes how people may live all alone. You see them sometimes on the streets or for me, at the airport, sleeping on couches at burger king every night without fail. You don't think about it but if u do now, I'm sure you're wondering what the hell keeps them from going insane. Living in either societal rejection, household rejection or poverty. Everyone needs accpetance and a little solace once in a while. Picturing this in mind you should already tend towards being a little more grateful that you have a family. That you have friends that care(if you don't have any then I think it's time that you start caring about the people around you).
There's this bangladeshi worker that comes to burger king every single night to clean up the place at about 2 am. And he's been coming here probably before I started going there to study in secondary 4. And today, I could totally see in his eyes, how terrible he feels about his job. I mean, I don't think that I'll be able to sweep and mop the floor and arrange the chairs every single night. especially away from my family and friends in India. Woah. to think of the sacrifice just to earn a meager sum to feed his family at home.
Another point to ponder...
So I guess I'd like to say thank you to everyone that's been there for me. Through thick and thin. To everyone that's been a good friend or even an acquaintance( a smiles enough to warm me up even on a night as cold as this). Thanks goes especially to Afiyah and Mark. They've always been there, no matter how monstrous I may be at times. and this is no exaggeration.
The A levels are coming up soon. But more disconcerting is the fact that the prelims is only a hair's breadth away. I really hope to do reasonably well. And I hope that tomorrow will be a better day.
True friendship and companionship doesn't come easy so please be mindful of your actions and words people. I know I haven't been.
Love is a many splendid things. Yet it may not always be served to you the way you want it. So take what you can from it and give what you can to it. Just don't always expect things to go your way or you'll set yourself up for disappointment.
Good morning everyone.
:)
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[01 Jan 2006|11:32am] |
okay. so in the end, I didn't get to spend much time with my girlfriend at orientation. it was really an awe-inspiring event though. it really made me not only see nor experience but REALISE what it is to be an ACsian and what the AC spirit is all about. I ended up making many many friends. and with those who I was already friends with, bonds were strengthened. I really thought that I would not be able to find anyone in AC that I could connect with on a deeper level but it seems that that isn't really the case. I guess that most people have been hiding in their shells or have been keeping mainly to those whom they've known for several years already. I myself found difficulty exposing who I truly was until ogl camp actually began. it was there that I began to feel comfortable with being myself as everyone was acting crazy and not feeling shy or ashamed of who they were. and of course they shouldn't for they're absolutely wonderful people! haha. nat subas was the funniest of all during the campfire, I couldn't help but laugh till I felt lightheaded from the lack of oxygen I was getting. he was swinging his crotch at the camera's and moon walking in the most retarded way in the world.
I don't actually know why I'm updating my journal but I guess it's because there's a sudden urgency to enhance my language capabilities. I'm really lacking in many aspects of my language and it's starting to bother me. ALOT. so I guess I'll heed the old advice of practice makes perfect.
anyways! camp was really fun. I had the two best OGL partners I could ever have gotten with me. namely, jolene ZHU and JIM(kimberley wee). haha. really crazy and retarded people like me! haha =)
on the first day I thought that my og was really dead. they all looked like they felt like they were in the most boring place every known to man. they were really stoned and quiet.
I began to feel very afraid. the only person I kinda knew was jill(the real douche bag).
and she was quiet too! but none the less sporting. haha. we kept making her do everything because she was the only person who looked like she was willing to do whatever we told her to. andy she was. haha. it was really funny. and muddy.
I didn't get to spend much time with my baby cause I was really busy. but I hope she knows that I love her very much still.
anyways. I am a wanting to sleep. and I think that my english is really sore. I shall be back practicing soon.
PS. please do not read further posts if u so feel that my entries are boring. because they shall all be rather similar until I manage to switch my more creative brain on again. stupid jolene! haha.
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ryan loves everyone who loves him too!
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[09 Nov 2005|04:08pm] |
As Sham had said earlier a few days ago. it indeed has been donkey years since I last wrote an entry and I think it has taken a negative toll on the way in which I express myself through the english language and also in the way my thoughts have also been constraint to the limited vocabulary in which I possess.
haha.
afiyah's o levels are tomorrow and she has been a huge blessing to me.
as such, I demand that all the angels out there bless her with the best results she can possibly get. haha.
sorry afiyah. need to help mallory with physics. shall continue later. haha
I LOVE YOU
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HELLOOOOOOOOO I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND!
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[11 Mar 2005|12:37am] |
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I'm online so late at night. well not exactly online. just got off the phone with a good friend. had an interesting and fruitful conversation. Kinda made me realize alotta things. life's been great lately, if you all would actually like to know. haha. tomorrow's the last day of skool at MI. so sad man. gonna miss all my friends there. and I'm gonna miss taking train with rachie in the morning and being angry at her for her being late. and getting free horlicks. I'll miss the horlicks. MI has the bestest best horlicks ever!! I don't think I'll see the rest of my friends very often. I'm so tired, I don't feel like going to school. but I think I'll go late.I think God has really blessed me this year, and even though I don't think I made it to vj and even though I some how placed ac as my first choice ahead of tj which is obviously the better school, I think he has great plans for me. there are just some people which I just have to meet at where I'm headed.and plus, besides the fairly good results, I've gotten luck with the affairs of the heart.
there's a walkathon on saturday which I think I'll skip.
life's changing so much, it's so hard to keep up. it's gonna get really hectic. that's jc life for you.
the most stressful period of your life. it's here where u actually decide if you wanna be an average student or the best of the best. it's here where u decide where u wanna go with your life. and that really scares me. the responsibilities which I'll have to undertake will be colossal as compared to those I hold now. but somehow, I have the feeling that everything is gonna turn out just fine.
at least I have the most beautiful girl in the world to stand by me and support me. so that even if I fail to meet my expectations, I have someone who can effortlessly make me happy. =)
I think I should go to sleep. I'm really tired. skool tomorrow, plus an ultra long day ahead. if I'm not going out with her, it's probably the cj concert thing which I've been assured free entry.
good night everyonee. sleep tight, my love.
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[08 Feb 2005|10:37pm] |
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TODAY was not a bad day at all. I slept pretty late last night because I was busy doing some nonsensical stuff and I woke up at like half past 7 to go to st patrick's because I was told that my bio teacher was to resign this monday. so I met up with daryl and tze kiat at bedok interchange and I had to run for the bus no.40 because it was departing the second I stepped into the interchange. quite luckily, I made it. haha. So we went to skool and we saw the tremendous changes in the facade but the culture pretty much still remained. haha. people were still banging the hall ground to that traditional beat. patricians would know. so i spoke to many teachers and we bumped into Idris there too! damn funny. haha. he was alone! poor guy. brandon seah came by too. so tze kiat, daryl, idris and I went to 57 to have breakfast then we headed down to orchard. I bumped into 101 people there. damn fun. haha. the whole world was there. loadsa ex josephians. I was supposed to go to lincoln's house with ashley but decided better against it.partly because i didn't want to pang seh daryl and also BECAUSE, i bumped into nadia while daryl was buying tickets! haha. so we all bought tickets together and watched constantine. IT ROCKED. like totally. haha. I really lyked the graphics and the story line was quite alright. but keanu reaves is damn cool. haha. and it was damn vulgar. the angel even told keanu that he was fucked. so yup. after the movie, i just went to my god father's place for reunion dinner. and NOW i'm home. was supposed to go to the seah's house for partying and drinks but i decided that I should reserve my energy for tomorroe. it doesn't even feel lyk chinese new year anymore. but oh well, at least i have a 6 day weekend. haha. tomorroe's gonna be another boring chinese new year day. gong xi fa cai everyone. =)
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back to you
it always comes around
back to you
I tried to forget you
I tried to stay away
But it's too late
over you
I'm never over
over you
there's something about you
It's just the way you move
the way you move me
Yea, I'm so good at forgetting
and I quit every game I play
but forgive me love
I can't turn and walk away(this way)
back to you
it always comes around
back to you
I walk with your shadow
I'm sleeping in my bed
with your silhouette
should have smiled in that picture
if it's the last that I'll see of you
it's the least that you could not do
leave the light on
I'll never give up on you
leave the light on
for me too
back to me
I know that it comes
back to me
doesn't it scare you
your will is not as strong
as it used to be.
this song is quite self explanatory.
anyways, today was quite a boring day at skool. the good thing about pre u is that the teacher's aren't so concerned about cheating when it comes to tests. I'm not saying that I cheated because I did not but we could like talk during the test and pass sweets around. which was really fun of course. I think I got full marks for the maths test. It was quite simple. I skipped chinese class, because the teacher is also pretty racist and I can barely cope with the complexities of the chinese language. they were already asking me to write 500 word essays about someone calling my name from behind on the first day at skool. how the hell am i going to do that in chinese? haha. so i spent most of that time in the library. the library rocks. the librarians are so slack. even if we scream and shout and weave in and out of the shelves, playing catching like small kids, they don't do a thing. haha. and they know that we're skipping lessons, and they don't do a thing. having an ipod really is an asset during lectures. they're quite utterly boring. the teachers all suck at english. or engrish. or whatever. haha. schooling there really makes the more english educated side of your brain start to decay. haha.
I saw some crashers today. quite funny ppl. doing funny things. haha. I was supposed to be a terrorist in a skit today. but thank god it was cancelled. I was barely paying attention to the script as it was being said out and I just hate acting. haha.
well, school ended at 1245 today, so I went to singapore poly with daryl and tze kiat. It was my second time there. I was thinking that it would be yet another barren wasteland as it was the day before but I discovered something really special. something I just might take up if my results don't turn out for the better.
It's the maritime academy. You do a diploma on navigational skills and you learn how to navigate and control ships? yup. your whole education is fully paid for because u sign a bond with a company before you even start the course. the company in fact pays you 900 dollars a month just to study. of course the vacancies are limited. 120 in the whole of singapore. but it's excellent
you only are bonded to the company for 2 more years. AND give it another 4 to 5 years, you get to become a captain. as a captain, you can work on shore and get paid 5 digit sums. AND ALSO, with that diploma, you can become a pilot! because the navigational equipment is pretty much the same! AND ALSO, you get to travel the world. the bad thing however, is that you travel 6 months at a time, but the good thing on the other hand is that after those six months, you get 2 to 3 months of PAID leave. hmmm. haha. I really don't noe if I'll take that course up but it just sounds damn good.
sigh.
I'm fine, but I'm lonely, really.
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I was woken up by my maid today,
I was to speak to someone on the phone who was calling in with some urgency.
she spoke with a very computerized voice and said that my appeal was successful.
she said I got into a science class. I was half asleep. but could still feel a sense of accomplishment none-the-less.
I wasn't over-joyed or anything cause it's not lyk i got into VJ or SAJ. haha
I made my way down to clementi. before that, I had to stop by guardian at the MRT station to get black hair spray. I dyed my hair medium beige golden blonde yesterday. Quite nice i think. Mark dyed his hair blue black. stylo. I didn't think that i would have been accepted.
I was reading interview with a vampire on the train all the way there, while my poor back was soaking up the sun's harmful UV rays.i couldn't find another seat.
I went to MI. it was rather run-down. haha. not the best architecture i've seen, but the people were warm and friendly. which kinda gave the place a distinct character.
I had to pay lyk 12 bucks for this file, t-shirt and badge. waste money. nevermind, father will pay me back.
This very kind girl whom i think is in rugby showed me around when i asked for directions. =) quite nice.
Skool starts monday and i have medium beige golden blonde hair. HAHA. i'm screwed.
they put me in a physics/chem/maths class. I DON'T want chem. yucks. I want ECONS. NICER.
oh well, at least i've something to keep me occupied.
and I played soccer with my cousins from australia the other day. Both are in the winning team in adelaide. They say i have great potential. if I don't do well enough to get into a JC of my choice. I'm on my way there man. soccer is my dream. since i was 3 years old. all I wanted to be was a soccer player.
I was swayed along the way but i've come back to my senses. I'm gonna go through university and still fulfill my dream. I must go to australia. MUST.
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While everyone is being all sad about skool having to start. i'm missing it. i want to go to skool!
i've got nothing else to say. i'm as BORED as the man standing on the moon. haha. but the moon man still sees all. BEWARE! CRIMINAL! okay. i'm going psycodelico.
anyway. i bought my ipod. and i have about 1720 songs now. i've been hopping over from house to house stealing songs. =) thanks to amanda hobday, qin xian, bose and myles. i am a happy man.
anyways. i've got work tomorroe. gonna give tuition. earn some bucks, then maybe go out with hui wen.
i'm listening to a nice song now that makes me smile.
Sunday morning, rain is falling
Steal some covers, share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in
But things just get so crazy,
Living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road, get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you
That someday it would lead me back to you
That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave
Fingers trace your every outline
Paint a picture with my hands
Back and forth we sway like branches in a storm
Change the weather still together when it ends
That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave
You may not know
That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Oh, come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow, driving slow
i'm a flower in your hair.
goodnight, my love.
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[28 Dec 2004|11:34pm] |
hey all. I just got back from a wonderful performance at victoria concert hall. I went to support Joy, Natasha and Melissa. they all danced damn well man. haha. i would go into further detail, but i'm much too lazy to do so. Let's just say that they were fabulous!
i met many friends there too. Many which i have not seen or met in ages. It was quite a joy being in their company.. even though it was only for a while.
anyways. i had the sweetest dream in the world last night. it was sad... but very sweet though. it was lyk a parting in the astral(which is another dimension, lets just call it dreamworld). A more or less mutual parting.
well, i'm not sure exactly how it began but i'm quite sure that it was a pretty long dream. =)
well, where it started off i think was at some restaurant. we were having a very romantic candle light dinner. the lights were dimmed and she was gorgeous, as usual. and we were talking, i don't noe about what, for a long time. i don't think i've smiled so much in a dream in my life.
then suddenly we were standing drenched in the rain, at a bustop. the one in front of bedok reservoir facing the aquarius condominium. we were both in uniform. how weird? then we boarded the bus and went to my place. as would most often have happened.. my family embraced her and we continued to engage in friendly chatter. then it all skipped again. but throughout the whole time she and i were together, we were brushing shoulders and were staring eye to eye, flirting with each other in that reserved, controlled way. haha. i think i felt the love for her which i used to feel in the past. it was a very invigorating feeling. haha. then yah. suddenly we embraced each other. for a very long time. i pulled back a little to try to kiss her but she turned away and hugged me again, tighter. it was a warmth i missed with all my heart. but it was sufficient to keep me warm for another year or so. haha. then suddenly, i received a message, and the ring tone woke me up. dang! haha. i loved that dream. but reality is quite the opposite. and i've faced that fact. sorry i'm talking rubbish. it definitely does not have any relation to how anyone else feels but i just thought i should note that dream down, before it escapes into oblivion.
and that's the end. haha.
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hey everyone. just played soccer the whole day today. damn shittified.
the feel was good for the first match, so i managed to score. then because of the thousand over matches that were being played on the same pitch, and also due to the dour weather, the pitch was so muddy, it was practically a pig sty.
we played and qualified third in our group, which brought us to the second round, the quarter finals.
it was damn stupid. haha. we were all set and ready to go. i was already tired and was already suffering from several injuries, such as someone's studs to me knee(it practically made an imprint, in cuts). haha.
we also didn't want to play because the other team was lyk the best team in the tournament.
however, in the absolute last minute, our captain, shawn walter, decide it better that we played.
and we did, and we won. haha.
so we went to the semis. and we lost because of a dive in the penalty box which led to a penalty which was the last kick of the day. how devestating.
so we played for third place. drew one all, but again lost on penalties. i didn't wanna take any because we were already cheating. Mark and I aren't even server boys and we played for that church. haha. we were good actors though. but mark had dreadlocks which roused some suspicion.
we came in 4th. retarded day. damn tired. i'm going to mallory's house now. bye.
loving you is easy cause you're beautiful.
but sometimes, that just aint enough reason.
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You could see me reaching,
So why couldn’t you have met me halfway
You could see me bleeding
And you could not put pressure on the wound....
You only think about yourself.
You only think about yourself.
You’d better bend before I go...
On the first train to Mexico....(ohhh)
You could see me breathing
But you still kept your hand over my mouth....
You could feel me seething
But you just turned your nose up in the air....(ohh)
You only think about yourself.
You only think about yourself...
You’d better bend before I go
On the first train to Mexico.....(ohh)
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hey all. life's been great! i went job searching today and applied for like 4 or 5 jobs.
Valerie and I met up at the airport first to look for jobs. we got several phone numbers of people in the high managerial positions but we found most of the jobs uninteresting. For example, working at times bookstore. Sure i'd be exposed to many interesting books which would widen my knowledge but how exciting can work be at a bookstore? so we decided to scrap that idea.
We wanted to apply at the starbucks at the airport but they ran out of application forms. So we went to swensens. haha. Swensens was so rubbish. like 4 other people were filling up application forms at the same time. Two muhds and two plmgs girls. So Val and I decided to try some place else. Mark had met us at the airport for he wanted me to accompany him to east coast beach to collect something. So we took bus 36 which took an awefully long time to come to Blk 57 from which we walked to the beach.
I experienced a tinge of nostalgia at marine cove but tried to brush it of. It sorta reminded me of the testimonial I am due this very day but i shall not be in the least expectant. After all, it's more than words, even though the way in which letters, or testimonials for this matter, are sculpted by the dexterity of words can bring pleasant connotations. okay, enough crap. haha.
yes yes. carrying on with my recap of the day's events, Val and I went to macs! can u believe it? we went to macs to look for a job. haha. we were that desperate. so we filled up the application form for the second time that day. haha. they said that they'd inform us if we got the job in three days time so we left and carried on walking. we walked and found the ideal place(i can't say where for reasons in which i shall not mention)! haha. we went there and they were most amiable. well, the boss was at least. he was really friendly, and the whole place had a totally chill out ambience. And it's at the beach, so what more could one want? it doesn't pay very well, but we don't mind very much. cause it's still cool. haha
so we filled in the application forms for the 3rd time. and this one was the longest. we then left with a sense of relaxation having been triumphant this time round. He gave us 2 days to decide if we wanted the job and invited our families over for breakfast on sunday morning. Just so our families would have a good impression of the place in which we were to work at. Yup. however, the pay still did bother me a little. so we decided to take a bus to simei east point, cause that's in the middle of where both of us live. yup. we went to starbucks and filled in the application form to work at simei east point. the manager there was quite friendly and she said that she'll have us informed if they had sufficient vacancies. so we'll see. we'll most probably get the job at the beach cause it's cool. And also, for me because i've got a flexible job which pays 10 buckeroos an hour! i just hope i'll have time to study, and also, time to play soccer.
so yup, everyone's going overseas. and mark has a job which takes up so much of his time. we'll probably go gyming tomorroe. or at least i hope. alright. i guess it's time to go. i'm quite sleepy and jerry is keeping me up with stupid funny videos online. haha. okay lah. night everyone. have a pleasant day ahead of you!
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i love this song.
This party is old and uninviting
Participants all in black and white
You enter in full-blown technicolor
Nothing is the same after tonight
If the world would fall apart
In a fiction-worthy wind
I wouldn't change a thing
Now that you're here
Yeah, love is a verb
Here in my room
Your love is a verb
Here in my room
You enter and close the door behind you
Now show me the world seen from the stars
If only the lights would dim a little
I'm weary of eyes upon my scars
If the world would fall apart
In a fiction-worthy wind
I wouldn't change a thing
Now that you're here
Yeah, love is a verb
Here in my room
Your love is a verb
Here in my room
Pink tractorbeam into your incision
Head spinning as free as dervishs' whirl
I came here expecting next to nothing
So thank you for being that kind of girl
That kind of girl
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[26 Oct 2004|06:57pm] |
i have officially fallen in love with this song. haha.
i've been studying since half past ten in the morning.i've changed the cds in mark's discman at least 8 times. haha. listened to the incubus albums lyk 4 times. morning view and crow left of the murder. damnnnn nice. listened to lauryn hill's oldie album which i found in the cd rack. the miseducation of lauryn hill is nice. someone start listening to this song.it's titled ex-factor. ciao.
It could all be so simple
but you'd rather make it hard
loving you is like a battle
and we both end up with scars
tell me, who i have to be
to get some reciprocity
no one loves you more than me
and no one ever will
is this just a silly game
that forces you to act this way
forces you to scream my name
then pretend that you can't stay
tell me, who i have to be
to get some reciprocity
See no one loves you more than me
and no one ever will.
No matter how i think we grow
you always seem to let me know
it ain't workin'
it ain't workin'
and when i try to walk away
you hurt yourself to make me stay
this is crazy
oh this is crazy
i keep letting you back in
how can i explain myself
as painful as this thing has been
i just can't be with no one else
see i know what we've got to do
you let go and i'll let go too
cause no one's hurt me more than you
and no one ever will
No matter how I think we grow
you always seem to let me know
it ain't workin'
it ain't workin'
And when i try to walk away
you hurt yourself to make me stay
This is crazy
Oh this is crazy
care for me, care for me
i know you care for me
there for me there for me
said you'd be there for me
cry for me cry for me
you said you'd die for me
give to me give to me
why won't you live for me.
care for me, care for me
you said you care for me
there for me there for me
said you'd be there for me
cry for me cry for me
you said you'd die for me
give to me give to me
why won't you live for me.
Where were you, when I needed you?
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